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Belief, Prayer and Determination

Bo Brown
| July 6, 2017

Living a life in recovery is not an easy path by any means. There are highs and lows, obstacles and barriers that can hinder even the most determined individuals. Sometimes, recovery can be as easy or as hard as you make it. It is a continuous daily process of facing everyday life and issues that made you use in the first place.

I owe my strength to three personal characteristics that I have learned throughout the process. I have found that belief, prayer, and determination have gotten me to the place where I am today.

I remember when I first entered treatment and I sat in a room of 60 men. We were told that only one in four of us would see that first year of sobriety. As the years of sobriety increased, the odds got worse. As I looked around the room, I started to wonder who out of the four men at my table was going to make it.

When I got to treatment, I honestly did not believe in myself. My self-esteem was non-existent. As the days grew into weeks, my belief in myself was nourished and began to grow. Somehow, in the protected bubble of a treatment center, I actually started to believe that I could actually be that one in four men that make it to that first year of sobriety. It wasn’t until I was released back into society that I found out that I needed more than just a belief in myself. I needed prayer, and a lot of it.

When I was using, I was not a very religious person. In fact, I only remember praying when I had a hangover. I remember praying to God, “If You get me through this, I will never drink again.” That usually lasted until that afternoon.

It is important to know that when it is time to leave treatment, life suddenly hits you in the face and you must rely on the tools you learned to get you through the tough times. One of the tools I used was prayer. Within two months of returning home, I was faced with both unemployment and the death of my father.

The day my father died, I somehow found myself in front of my familiar package store ready to put an end to my new found sobriety. I sat there and watched many people enter and exit the store. The whole time I sat there, I prayed for strength, dug in to find those mindfulness tools, and breathed. I talked myself down from the ledge and made my way safely home. Every day since, prayer has become a constant part of my daily routine. Never underestimate the power of prayer.

Determination is something that I found in the rooms. Time of sobriety is commemorated by coins. In your first year you get coins based on months of sobriety. In my first year, I treasured each and every coin like a rite of passage. After the first year of sobriety, coins symbolize each year of being clean. To this day, I am in awe of those strong determined individuals that amass 5, 10, even 20 years of continuous sobriety. I want what they have. That determination and strength that my fellow peers show in the rooms is inspiring. It strengthens my determination to live an honest, clean, sober life each day.

Like I mentioned before, sobriety is not easy. But with belief, prayer, and determination, I have been able to navigate through the hard times in the past three years. I owe my life to those who taught me how to believe in myself, those who opened my mind to the power of prayer, and those friends in the room that have shown me that sheer determination is a strength that I have in myself.

If you would like to share your story with Heroes in Recovery you can contact me at Bo@heroesinrecovery.com. By sharing your story, you inspire others to break the stigma associated with substance use and mental health issues.

Much love,

Bo

  • Heidi

    beautiful testimony. To God be the Glory. I’m so very proud of you. I find that such programs are very helpful, especially if you have a great sponsor and accountability partners. But you are right– it must be accompanied with prayer and determination, and listening to God and acting on behalf of yourself, to do what is best for you, in the face of temptation. This is AWESOME.
    Thank you again for sharing your story and growth and inspiring others to never give up!

  • Melissa Kurras

    I am so proud of you! Beautifully written and honest account of your struggle. I know you are helping people with your testimony!

  • Lisa Baker

    Love this, Bo. I’m glad you are sober and being of service to so many. I’m glad to call you my friend.

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