- Alcohol
The moment that changed my life was when I realized I was the bane of my own existence an that I offered nothing to anyone’s life around me. I only sucked up the love and energy others gave with offering nothing in return. I was a black hole.
The turning point for me was when I had a moment of realization that I was tired of hurting and in the moment that followed, I knew the only way to stop the hurt was to end my life. That realization scared the hell out of me.
I had tried to stay sober and attended out-patient treatment but just wasn’t getting it or understanding. So once I had that realization, I got dressed and drove to the treatment facility. I started crying as I drove and continued to cry walking up the stairs and into the arms of my counselor, Judy Campbell. That was 1/31/99 and I haven’t had the need to alter my perception of the world with drugs and alcohol since that day.
Life is what it is supposed to be today; sometimes rough and sometimes blissful. Other times I just cruise through life without a thought that I am alcoholic and that is why I continue going to and need to go to AA. Doing so, helps me to remind myself who I am and to share with others in hopes of showing them a different way of life.