- Drugs
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My life has been a journey to say the least. Some good, some bad… actually a lot of bad. I still remember the good times and will never forget them.
My journey started while I was young. My parents got divorced and battled over who got custody of me which affected me, because I was so young. I was too young to choose. How can you choose one or the other? I left to live with my father.
For years, I was emotionally and physically abused. It eventually led me down a road of being a high school dropout, working minimum wage. Eventually, that road led me to prescription drugs. Before that time, I never had a problem with willpower. I thought I could stop whenever, just let me drown and doze off and run from my problems and how I viewed my life
Although I was unhappy, before drugs I could mask it well. People enjoyed being around me, and me them. That all changed faster than a blink of an eye after getting on these drugs.
My road eventually lead me to become a heroin addict. I am now going on five years of being hooked. Every relationship I had built was gone. I didn’t like to be around people. I was selfish, unreliable, untrustworthy, and just not myself. My life revolved around that drug.
I have often tried to get clean, only to relapse almost instantly. I have a problem, and I am still realizing it is beyond my own control. I now understand the struggle that we as addicted people go through. I’m 28 years old now. I have overdosed twice, and lost five friends to this drug I’ll never get back. This drug is the devil and it takes over your mind and body.
I am in very early recovery and was able to open up to my family and tell them about my life… and what it has turned into. They all want to help me. I have hurt them. Sometimes you don’t understand you hurt more than just yourself.
My family misses me… and I miss them. I don’t even know what it feels like to wake up normal, not in physical pain. I would give anything to could go back in time and not start using. I promise you. This drug will take over any rational thinking you have. Please. Be strong. Don’t use these.
I may have lost everything, but I still have hope. I don’t want to throw my life away, and want whoever reads this to know you’re not alone. Help is right around the corner; you just have to be ready to accept it. This isn’t something you can do on your own.