- Drugs
First I want to thank God for giving me a second chance to live and the opportunity to share my story.
I grow up in a very badly dysfunctional family. I moved out when I was 13 because I did not want to go down the same path my family was living each day. They were all on drugs. I started working at age 15 and worked fifteen years with a great career and started a family.
I was in an abusive relationship with my ex-boyfriend for twenty years. I lost my father due to addiction and a year later lost my dream job. I feel into a very dark depression and started using painkillers, which then lead to heroin. I ended up losing everything I worked so hard for and wanted in life. I either lost or sold my stuff for drugs. I tried to get help many times, but kept going back to drugs to numb myself.
I ended up going to jail and losing custody of my two amazing children. This time I really didn’t care anymore and went deeper into my drug abuse. All I wanted to do was die. I ended up getting deathly ill and came down with bacterial meningitis, kidney and heart infection, swelling in my brain, MRSA, and worst of all, I lost my hearing. My heart stopped in the intensive care unit, but God and the doctors saved me.
After that, I went through three months of fighting for my life and learning how to use my hands and arms and relearning to walk again. I no longer have my hearing. I am now deaf due to my drug abuse. Today I am five months clean, appreciating my life and building a wonderful relationship in God. I live my life everyday as if it were my last. I love learning sign language and realize it is not so bad being deaf.
I have my family and friends back in my life and feel so blessed each day. I am writing a book on my life and sharing with other addicts out there hoping it will change someone’s life. I pray for all the suffering addicts and everyone in recovery to keep fighting.
Do not give up. You can make a difference in your life, no matter what you have been through. I did! God bless and never give up and keep the faith in your life. Thank you for letting me share.