- Faith
Look into my eyes, and tell me what you see.
Is it a lost soul with no control trying to be free?
As I look into the mirror and stare into my eyes,
I see all the anger and self-hate, hypocrisy and lies.
I see resentment, frustration, embarrassment and pain,
I see jail bars and fancy cars as I cruise down memory lane.
I see the feelings I repressed, going back to childhood.
I need to let go of all those feelings, and I would if I could.
I see the hurt I caused to the ones I love the most.
I see my brother on his wedding day as we celebrate with a toast.
I see the good and the bad times that I experienced in my life.
But it’s so hard to let go of all that bitterness and strife.
There’s a sense of sadness when you look into my eyes.
Like the ones you see when a close relative dies.
But this death is not a physical; it has to do with the soul.
It’s that morbid feeing we get when our spiritual energy is low.
It’s like nothing matters anymore, like that day when I was fired,
Feeling depressed and weak; can’t sleep, but I’m so tired.
I’m tired of all the pain, the hurt and the rain.
From that cloud that keeps following me, sometimes I think I’m insane.
But when I look out my window and see the beauty of the lake.
It reminds me of good times, like when I was nine and things were fine.
And with the sunrise I feel the presence of the Creator.
When I look out my window, I see me in the beauty of nature.
I’m apart of God’s creation, nature and humanity!
The loving spirit that’s in Jesus is also in me!
So I’ve learned to love myself and others just for who we are.
And I learned about this love looking out my window with jail bars.
-Kelvin Young