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I started using drugs at 15. I became a meth addict at 18. I was always bullied at school. The other kids hated me so much, and I didn’t know why. I was so depressed that I tried to hurt my mother, and she kicked me out of the house. I was homeless for about a year and did whatever I could to just live. I met a guy who took me in but at a heavy price. I turned into a meth addict.
I woke up one morning in October, 2011 and said, “I think it is time to go.” I was sick of needing to be high to get through every single day. After being beaten and nearly killed a few months prior by a drunken meth addict who I loved dearly, I finally awoke to the fact that I had to just go.
I met a guy online who was very kind to me. His was a different kind of kindness, one which I wasn’t accustomed to in my drug-addict lifestyle. I met with him a few times, and I would instantly feel my hurt and sadness disappear when we were together. I wanted to keep that feeling so badly, but I thought he would never permanently invite someone like me into his life. Boy was I so wrong!
I learned that an addicted life was not a fun life. I used to make fun of sober people. I pitied them and thought they were lame. After my multiple, multiple hospital visits, I learned that the drugs were making my life a living nightmare. No matter how bad it is, drugs NEVER make anything better. That blank, empty feeling you get from taking drugs, the drugs that mask the pain, is temporary, and it goes away fast. It is not worth it. There are better options.
I am four years recovered. It feels pretty darn good. What a sensational feeling to know that your everyday routine does not consist of having to inhale or swallow something just to get going! The love I can feel for others is absolutely the best thing I have ever felt. I never really had that before.
I feel like every person in recovery has a unique footprint on this Earth. They are all role models and heroes. They all stand up against the epidemic that has gouged our world. Everyone, no matter how big or small their problems are, just needs someone to grab their hand and say, “You are so worth fighting for!”