Why do we operate on a 24-hour basis? The answer that I’ve come up with to this broad question is to find sanity. Generally speaking, I look to a lot of different affirmations to get my head moving in the right direction. Some of those include keeping my thoughts in today, reminding myself how fortunate I am to wake up sober another day and that I am very blessed to be in a position to help other people. I find if I don’t regularly practice this my thoughts get a lot harder to manage during the day.
I have written a lot about when I was contemplative in making a lifestyle change before I actually had enough courage to do it. One of the main reasons I kept on living the same way is because I would look at the past and then project a future in this process that did not exist. Mostly what I would conjure up in my mind is something that would be unsuccessful and boring. This was my addictive brain trying to keep me in the same place as long as I would allow it to happen. The pain that I felt got great enough to ignore my fears. Furthermore, I started thinking about what I needed to do for my own sake and wellness. At this juncture I had no choice but to look at what I could do with the time right in front of me. I started saying to myself, “You can handle doing this for 24 hours, the next 5 minutes or the next couple of hours.”
There are many things I’ve gone through that led to growth spurts along the way. Loss has been by far the hardest thing for me. Watching a chain of people lose the opportunity to have another day to live because of their battle with addiction is painful. While also giving me proof that the mass public should be more informed. Public awareness can bring the realities of addiction but also sharing recovery and what that truly is can be highly transformative. I could not imagine what my life would be like having to cope with all the losses and no skills to do it.
I have found that talking to other people, praying about it, and practicing different ways to healthily move through unpleasant circumstances works as well! My experience has happened unexpectedly whether it was highs or lows. On this journey particularly, I have been through a large range of emotions in the shortest amount of time. Bringing myself back to focus on that minimal space of time makes all the difference in the world. The advice has been passed on for quite a while, although many may think it is cliché. This simple phrase has changed so many lives including my own. It is safe to say don’t underestimate the power of how one perceives time.
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