How Is It Possible?
My mother always says, “When I put my mind to something that is it.” This had me up to no good for a long time and persistently continuing down a dead end path. I felt defeated when I could not do it on my own, where was I going wrong? How come my life is not getting better? It just did not dawn on me that I was not going to be able to solve this problem. When I asked for the help I did receive, the answers came.
The past six years have been dedicated to healthy sacrifice, to accept suggestions and something new into my world. It was so scary at first because I had no clue what was to come but that little voice inside of me said, “You can do this, and you never know, it might end up being a wise decision.” Well, I can honestly say that voice has magnified itself into being my voice of reason. The voice of my addiction has quieted down as my higher path has unfolded.
At this point, I truly wanted to stay sober and create a new life for myself. All that perseverance and hardheaded mentality was redirected toward developing a way to stay focused on the freshness. Instead of being afraid of what was to come I started to become empowered by the opportunity to see something new. Remember all I looked at for a long time was the bottom of a glass.
I was encouraged and driven by the idea that I would no longer feel alone anymore. What really got me excited about this process was seeing how other people had successfully made it through the stages I was entering. To care for a belief that something outside of myself could help saves me time and time again.
Through self-awareness and a glimpse of what recovery had to offer change was on the horizon for me. I began making sacrifices. These started out small, then as time passed the sacrifices became greater because what I had to lose was far more than I was willing to let go.
The time is now! Not yesterday and not tomorrow, but now. If I were to have continued to sit around and say I will worry about that another day, I would either not be here on this earth or I would be a miserable person living stuck in life, paralyzed by fear. Facing what holds me back sets me free.
I am a Lead Advocate for Heroes in Recovery. I appreciate you taking the time to read my blog. I blog with 4 other amazing people please check out their blogs, too. Heroes in Recovery is a movement designed to break the stigma associated with addiction and mental health. We do many things to support this mission including asking people to share their recovery stories with us. We also host various events around the country including our Heroes in Recovery 6k run/walk series. These focus on working with communities to raise awareness and break the stigma and motivating others to get involved.
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