- Drugs
DESPAIR
Beyond the reach of human range
A drop of hell, a touch of strange
Rock by rock I built a wall
Never knowing how far I’d fall
One was always too little
One was always to too much
One cost me everything
Even your touch
All my thoughts were all arranged
All my mind was all deranged
Reality leaving, going on it’s way
Where it’s gone, I can’t say
All the colors on the wheel
Can’t describe just how it feels
To find the black and lose the light
Starless sky in an endless night
Once I could live and laught, even cry
Now the hole in me only wonders why
All my joy has turned to sorrow
How long can I wait for tomorow
If I should die before I wake
Will I still have a soul to take
If I should live to see the day
One big blast will blow it all away
All the love my heart once felt
Listen to it sizzle, watch it melt
My world lost in the bitter smoke
Someone page the man that has the coke
Call him quick let it ring
Ask him please won’t he bring
A drop of hell, a touch of strange
Beyond the reach of human range
I wrote this poem in Jan of 2000 in rehab at the end of 40 years of using.