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Kevin has been in recovery since March 23, 2002. He and his wife Norma have a beautiful blended family of two daughters and two sons. Kevin is a sound mixer on TV shows.
When I was a young boy, I started lying to my dad to get out of whippings. Why tell the truth? I became a liar when it came to stories about girls or how big a fish I caught. Most of all I became a liar about my feelings. When I was scared, I said I wasn’t. When someone hurt me, I said I didn’t care. I really did, I just didn’t want to sound weak.
I took up weightlifting to get big and to hopefully intimidate the guys and impress the girls. I was actually scared of both and always lied about it. I also lied about my secret drug use, and that was the lie that almost killed me.
13 1/2 years ago and with help, I made the decision to stop lying. The lying was killing me inside. I was sick of living my life like that. At the beginning I would still lie to a friend, but the guilt would hurt so much I would go and confess to him no matter how small the lie.
A lie is a lie to me.
Now I have nothing to hide. I talk to people about my feelings and/or my past because if somebody is living the way I was before, I want them to know they’re not alone, and they can change! I’m living proof that a zebra can change his strips.
I live right, I don’t envy others, and I keep my side of the street clean. Most of all I’m honest. I’m living a fear-free life. What a relief and what a freedom!