- Alcohol
- Faith
Dear Alcohol,
Oh, sweet nectar of love. You have cradled & coddled me for most of my life. When no one was there to protect me, I felt your warm embrace. When my tears were falling, you wiped my face. When emotions raged inside of me, you calmed & numbed the pain. When loneliness enveloped my soul, you whispered in my ear, “I’m here…”. You were always there, calling to me in a soothing voice & telling me everything would be alright. Holding me…but way too tight. You played & teased me at first, reeling me in and gaining my trust. I wanted to believe your forked tongued lies. I longed to hear your lullabies. With the chaos churning around me, I welcomed you. I needed you. I loved you more than I could any human being. The dance of addiction rocked me gently, but soon the movements became tumultuous. The comfort disappeared and was replaced with unpredictability. I reached for your protection…but it was gone. I spiraled farther from reality and heard your cackling laughter. You mocked me. I tried to escape, but you always found me and pulled me back into your pit of despair. You enslaved me in your snare. You brought me to my knees in defeat, but on my knees in humility, I found prayer. I turned my head towards my Higher Power & he grasped my hand to help me stand. I still felt your fire and wrath as I moved towards the light. I still saw your shadow behind me. I know you are always still there…breathing your hot fetid breath down my back. But, I choose to walk away from you. My Higher Power does for me now, what I once falsely believed you had. He embraces & protects me, rocking me gently with hope. He wipes my tears with kindness and fills the void you never could. You convinced me to eat from your apple, but left me with a hollow core. So…this is goodbye old friend. I’m moving on with my hand entwined in God’s fatherly grip. I take back control & power of my life & leave you in the wake of my parting dust.
-Kat