- Alcohol
Jana M.’s Story
I started out drinking years ago after my divorce. I was fine at first. It was so much fun for a while. And then it wasn’t.
It got to where I would black out and become ashamed of my behavior and how much I was drinking. I knew a change was needed years before I began trying to get sober. I would just dismiss my thoughts with the usual lies of “it’s not that bad” or ‘”I’m overreacting.” I began to drink more alone and drink more nights of the week. I became very depressed and had a lot of anxiety.
I have tried to get sober for at least 2 years, if not more. I have had stretches of sobriety, but then I would drink again and tell myself the same lies. In late February of last year, it had really escalated and I made a suicide attempt. God saved me that night and I ended up going to rehab. I was sober for almost 5 months, but then I relapsed. This time it was even worse. I drank more often, missed work and other obligations and couldn’t control my drinking in the least. 18 days ago, I decided that was enough and I have been sober since then.
I am much happier being sober and now have a full life.