In the great hindsight of looking back at the destruction I created in my days of using cocaine, heroin and booze, I’m grateful to say it holds no power over me. I have amended it and I feel fixed and wholesome.
I used from the ages of 11 to 41. After working on my issues, I came to believe that the problem lay pre-addiction. So once I got clean-sober, I continued to clear up the hurt I felt inside of me. The emotional pain of grief, guilt, abuse, shame, resentment and many more torments I had created or had been directed at me in the dog-eat-dog world I lived in.
The Life Shift
The way forward for me was building a relationship with myself and cleansing my soul, coupled with building self love, self esteem and emotional maturity. I began to thrive in life and I had the ability to tell my family I loved them and life began to blossom. I felt worthy enough to become a worker and worked in rehabs and centers where young folk were destined for the same path I was once on.
I loved myself and loved working with others. My life was shining.
I came from being hopeless and feeling worthless to becoming an outstanding member of society. Then I fell ill. I went on to learn I had ME and had to reshape my whole life but the universe had another path to put me on — A path that was even more fruitful. My priorities in life changed and my health came first and I began to work volunteering in opening up a charity for children and family members affected by alcoholism and addiction.
13 Years and Counting
I am now onto my second charitable organization and work from my home. Our organization seems to be flourishing and we have over 900 members and helped over 400 children in two years.
God surely has a path for those who become his sons and daughter. I’m a classic example of never give up and it’s never to late. If you’re still reading this, pass on the hope as I’m 54 years old now and 13 years clean and sober next week. Yee-haw!