The Way
In order to make room for the wonderful new life you are creating in recovery, there is a need to let go of that which no longer serves you. Whether it is material possessions, ideologies or belief systems, letting go is a liberating challenge to say the least. The process of letting go can be daunting at times. But once it is begun and revelations are made, it becomes a seamless process of growth, self discovery and selfless gratitude.
As you begin to release the old and to allow in the new, pain and suffering could be experienced. At times, it may seem as though you cannot go on. Having this obsession removed from you may allow other habits to form to give ease and comfort to the sting of the journey. If you can find a way to hold fast to the tools and wisdom you have gained, the suffering will subside and a bright new beginning can be seen on the horizon.
When I entered into recovery, I was asked to release almost every aspect of my previous existence. Changing people, places and things meant loosing who I thought I was in order to create this new version of myself. This was a true representation of who I really was, sans the lies, sans the shell and sans the performance of someone who had it all together. Becoming who I truly was meant no longer being able to hide behind the mask of an addiction, which revealed the glory of the imperfection of being human. No longer looking to impress, I struggled with an identity that I could not find. But as I stuck to my truth, more and more friends were presented along my path who shared similarities. Together, we could find common bonds that allowed us to be genuine. These bonds would create stories and memories that will be remembered through growth. Letting go of who I thought I was allowed me to begin to become who I am.
The make-up of society sometimes dictates that we adhere to traits that are uniform in nature. There are reasons for these boundaries, and I do find value in them to some degree. However, the moment that these boundaries disagree with the path I know I am to follow, I trust my inner guidance and move with positive intent. The vexation in my spirit is what brought me to my knees in the past. Trusting that feeling and that knowing is what keeps me free today. I do not deny the truth of another, yet I stay true to the truth that holds me and keeps me free.
In letting go, the road is filled with perils and mockery. You may meet many who do not understand your journey. Walking in the light of your own truth can, at times, become a lonely road to travel. If you should hold in your heart what you believe to be your truth, stay open minded and understand that there isn’t just one way to the same destination, I assure you that your enlightenment will be genuine and spotted with minimal regret. Recovery is different for everyone. You have a right to the understanding and the journey of figuring out what that means to you. The way is uniquely beautiful my friends. Be sure to take plenty of pictures.
With love and light, I honor your path and what it has meant and will mean to you.
Happy journey,
Adventure V.