- Alcohol
- Drugs
- Faith
- Friends & Family
My life changed when I realized that I was out of control to the point of having been arrested. I humiliated my husband, my children, my family, and myself. I saw my world come out from under me and spiral out of control to the point that I tried to kill myself, but instead ended up with five facial fractures, a fractured skull, a broken clavicle, and a broken rib. I was taken to the hospital and was discharged with visiting nurses who had to assist me. Much of that time is hard to recall because I have memory retention issues, migraines, hearing problems, and jaw/mouth issues.
After I overdosed multiple times and was involved in many auto accidents, my family did not want to see me. I truly lost my world—my husband and children. At the time, I feared that I would kill myself or them, so I eventually entered a rehabilitation center to get help. Thankfully, my family helped me get in treatment, and after inpatient treatment, I entered outpatient services in Rhode Island.
The lessons I have learned is that I had to surrender to the process and admit I am an addict.
I had to want wellness for me or recovery wasn’t going to work. I knew if I did not recover I would not be good to anyone, especially myself. I did finally look within myself and retrain my brain to get down to the root of the issues—not just the surface issues. I finally learned that I had to stay away from unhealthy people, places and things.
I have a strong foundation for my sobriety because I learn all I can about this disease every day. It is true that you must live one day at a time. Sometimes it is just one minute or second at a time. But if you can only make it through one second, you have to give 100 percent. I had to learn to be greedy at times so that I could focus on my own recovery first. But most of all, I leaned that each day I must always follow the program!
As of August 4th I have been clean for two years. I couldn’t be happier in my life now. I have my husband, my children and my friends. Most importantly, I am not ashamed. I would not change what I have been though in this addiction and recovery process because it has made me who I am today. I am a warrior. I do speak and help others, but I hold my own sobriety first. I keep going because of my faith in Jesus and my family.
I hope that my story will be able to help or reach at least one person. My goal is to show people if I can do it, anyone can. If you want it, you will succeed!