- Alcohol
- Drugs
After going through a drug and alcohol induced psychosis for six months and being missing for three days with total memory loss, I was pushed into an addiction support group for the first time. After a five month period of fear-based sobriety, my traumatic incident seemed to disappear from my brain and I began drinking again.
After being back out in that world for a few months, I had gotten myself to a point where I couldn’t stop drinking. I was so miserable and in so much pain. I had serious thoughts of putting a bullet through my head. One night, I looked at my bookshelf and there sat my Big Book. I sighed and told myself I was going to give the program one shot, just to prove that it didn’t work for me. And after I was done proving the ineffectiveness of those support groups, I would proceed with taking my own life.
So I went to a meeting, shared with everyone how I couldn’t stop drinking, picked up a white chip, got a sponsor, and began working the steps. Sure enough, a few months later, the program worked for me. This way of life eventually caught on, and I haven’t had to have a drink since.
I have been sober long enough to receive the benefits of the program, plus some bonuses. I am doing things today that I never thought I was capable of. God is showing me that my purpose on this earth is not about me. Being helpful to others helps me abstain from drinking alcohol and doing drugs today. It also helps to grow my relationship with God and work the steps of the program.