The anger I held was toward others was an attempt to disguise the fact that I was actually disappointed with me. Anger was an easy emotion for me and one I felt totally comfortable with. When I was angry, it was another reason to engage in whatever self-destructive behavior popped into my head. And there were plenty!
Continue Reading Somewhere in those discussions, he knew that my drive to be perfect came from feeling so imperfect. I felt as if I was full of damaged goods on the inside. My thinking was if I looked perfect, acted perfect, and performed perfectly on the outside, then no one would notice the damage on the inside. What was on the inside was all I could see.
Continue Reading We talk a lot in recovery about recovery itself being an inside job (which it is). However, every single one of us, addict or not, has to heal from the inside out. If we can resolve what is happening to us on the inside, we’ll look better on the outside.
Continue Reading Regaining self-worth was definitely an inside job that took practice over a long period of time, but the effort was so worth it.
Continue Reading Recovery is not a curse. It’s a blessing that only comes when you are open to the wonders that life has to offer. I can see those today. If I was still on the other side, I can promise you I would not be able to see or appreciate any of the blessings I may have had.
Continue Reading Take care of yourself first, so that you can be the giver you truly are. We are all wired to help each other. It’s like on the airplane where you put on your oxygen mask first so that you are able to help others. It’s not being selfish. It’s being smart.
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