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I began using drugs at age 18. At that time, I did not use daily. I was a teenager just experiencing new things at first, but as I grew older, it became habit.
Any relationship I was in was revolved around drugs and it always made problems for me. It broke me away from my family and my real friends. I ended up moving around often, chasing what I thought was true love, but in actuality it was my love for an addiction.
I had two kids with a man I fell in love with. He died while I was pregnant with are third child, so after that I fully started using my drugs of choice– usually meth.
After I had my third child, tragedy struck again when I lost my brother. I left my kids with my mom and eventually went through many abusive relationships. I was both abused and an abuser. I did drugs every single day– not one day went by without me using.
My children began to forget me and they began to always expect the next lie, the next heartbreak from me– the one they loved the most. I had drug charges to face and many chances to go to rehab, but I allowed a million things get in the way of me being happy and I knew it.
It was a miracle I survived. I wanted to die day after day. The Feds began looking for me because of the people I surrounded myself with. I had run from my probation, so I continued to run. I was selling drugs, running the streets, and I always felt lost, confused, and misunderstood.
I would curse the very existence of God– but when I got locked up, God was the only one to save me. I did seven months’ time on a two-year sentence. By the grace of God, I got saved in prison. When I was released, I carried Jesus with me and He is still the center of my life.
I am clean one year as of October and I can honestly say I’m happier now than I’ve ever been in my entire life. God has helped me repair broken relationships. He put my kids back in my life and I give God all the glory for giving me peace beyond any explanation.