- Drugs
- Faith
Hello, My name is Jason J. and by the grace of God I am sober today going on 17 months. I lived a life of meth addiction for nearly 20 years. I won’t get into the horrors of my addiction. I will merely tell you I lost a lot due to my addiction and struggled for many years with it. I can not believe the life I have been given in my recovery. Is there life after meth? You know I used to ask myself that very question until memorial day of 2012. That was the day I had an awakening unlike any other. I was sitting in treatment bored out of my mind, and something inside my head told me to go and find something to read. I went out in the dining room and found one of those “Our Daily Bread” books and opened it up to Memorial Day, just to see if the reading for that day was coinciding with the day I was having. Something in my head said, “Why don’t you go to the day you came into treatment and read that?” I’m positive that voice was my mother in heaven, just to make sure you don’t think I’m crazy. Anyway the bible verse for April 25th, 2012 (the day I arrived at treatment) read, “I will restore to you the years the swarming locusts have eaten.” Tingles began to shoot through my whole body. It was a feeling unlike any I had ever felt before, and from that day forward I knew I was going to be okay. Meth was a locust in my life just shy of 20 years. The way things end up happening is amazing, and I have yet to even have a craving. Life does get better. Give it to God, whatever that may be to you. He made a promise to me with, “I will restore to you.” He didn’t say maybe. He said “I WILL,” and I wholeheartedly believed. I am now happier than I have ever been in my whole life for believing that promise. Since my recovery began, I have been restored far more than I feel I deserve. I have my own apartment again, I have a sober network I would not give up for the world, I value not only my recovery but myself as well. I am vice president of my squad council, I DJ dances twice a month and I have been given so many things in my recovery. Yet there is nothing better than just having the peace of mind that comes with finding yourself. The life I lead today is unlike anything I myself or all those that know me ever would have thought. I’m simply trying to say that no matter what your struggle, there is a way through it to happiness. The very start of that is to truly and wholeheartedly begin to love yourself enough to make it happen.