- Drugs
I am a 23 year old recovering addict.
I was in active addiction for 7 years. Here is a little background about myself: I was born into an addict family with both parents being drug addicts. My mother continued her addiction and is still in active addiction, while my father was just released after 17 years in prison. I was sexually abused as a child, I’ve lived in hotels and with my mother’s abusive boyfriends, until eventually living with my grandmother. (Who was an alcoholic)
My addiction began at age 16, with typical marijuana and alcohol. It quickly progressed to opiates and heroin. I have been to jail for prescription fraud, I have lied, stolen and slept with dealers for drugs.
For the past seven years my addiction came first.
I met my now boyfriend of the last year and a half during my addiction, around the time my grandma was diagnosed with stage four small cell carcinoma. (Lung cancer) I was her main caregiver, yet I spent my time away from her finding my next hit or stealing her prescriptions. I got as low as you could get in my active addiction.
At 22, I began smoking crack with my mother who is still in active addiction. I have lied and stolen from family and my boyfriend. I have slept around for money and drugs and I have been as low as neglecting personal hygiene. I’ve spent my rent and grocery money on a hit, I’ve run to pick up a movie and stayed gone for hours getting high. My boyfriend tried to help me get clean for a year, and I wanted to, but I couldn’t seem to stay away. I was finally accepted into a four month facility for addicts. I failed my first drug test and had to wait two more weeks, but was finally accepted.
In my addiction, I was to the point where I had accepted life as an addict. However once I found recovery, I never wanted to go back to active addiction. It took me a while to realize that I was worth recovery, and with the help of narcotics anonymous and the God of my understanding. After 7 straight years in active addiction, my recovery is a blessing and miracle. I am sober and happy today. I hope my message touches at least one of you. I want so badly to help the addict who still suffers.
We do recover and recovery IS POSSIBLE! I am living proof that even the lowest point of your addiction can be arrested.
Thank you for letting me share.