Today I live in recovery. I see a peaceful set of roads, well-marked with signs, steady traffic in a friendly environment. Of course there is a little fender bender once in a while and that is okay. I can deal with life today, make a detour in my brain and let the traffic flow by. Negative thoughts don’t have to dominate my day or my night anymore. The hamster in his wheel has stopped running. I am grateful for this peace!
Continue Reading It was a long hard process through addiction, denial and problems. Many have lost not only their spiritual condition and their mind, but also all material and worldly things. First we work (of course) to get clean and sober and stay that way. At some point we reach a place, where we would consider ourselves as pretty stable in our sobriety and have to move on. It is time to face it and fix it.
Continue Reading A lot of women are overwhelmed by life, household chores and children. On certain days it is not possible to handle all life demands from a mother and housewife, and trying to keep up can lead to depression or sleep disorders. A “quick fix” from a doctor helps hide the symptoms, but too often it leads to addiction. We housewives are human, and we can’t be perfect. Those pills sure don’t clean our floors, but they let us not care about it.
Continue Reading Absolutely nobody in my life met these expectations. I wanted everything to go my way, and I expected all others to go along with my ideas and plans. Needless to say there were many people in my life that did not agree with me, and my expectations led to frustration. If I was frustrated, I drank. I got lonely, even when the room was full of people.
Continue Reading In recovery I had to get rid of a lot of things from my past to make room for new things, new experiences, new friends, a new life. It was a good-bye not for tears but for the good and for growth. I had to let go of the past. I keep my memories (good and bad) and use them as stepping stones for my future, just as some flowers keep their bulbs.
Continue Reading It is one thing to start the journey and get sober by simply thinking “Don’t drink.” But this is only the very beginning. Very quickly, cravings can set in, triggers can confront us, emotions can get overwhelming and problems can make us want to have a drink or take a drug again.
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