What Makes Me Smile!
The grass under my feet helps me to know I am walking on this earth. As the breeze blows across my face I sense the essence of the air rushing over me. When it rains I appreciate renewal and growth. To see a smile on the face of others brightens my day. I used to be sad and depressed about everything. I was such a worrier mostly afraid things would not work out how I want them to happen. Being able to drink like a non-alcoholic was one of those delusions. I forgot about the idea that today I am alive. To have another day to live is a gift. The very basic things that I took for granted have become the catalyst to creating my happiness. The blood is rolling through my veins and my self-awareness is heightening to a level that at first felt foreign.
Not only is it a powerful catalyst it is the little things that matter. The quirks, flaws and many different facets generate our originality. When I put substances down I began to see how I used to worry about the littlest things. I would make them into World War 3 most of the time. I was dramatizing life because it gave me an excuse to go back to the spur of the moment helper.
The problem was that instant gratification only lasted for a short period of time. It became very easy to use the little things as a scapegoat for my behavior. As I transition into a deeper understanding of all of who I am the importance of these circumstances have changed. I see them as guided messages to a healthier future. Either continuing something that works or stopping the momentum of something that does not.
To get back to the basics, being able to get excited about living life is a great feeling. A positive attitude can open the doors to moving through most bad days. Having gratitude for the opportunity to share a meaningful conversation with someone gives me joy. Seeing the little things in a different light makes me smile.
I am a Lead Advocate for Heroes In Recovery. The Heroes in Recovery movement begins with sharing our stories of hope and perseverance to inspire others. We are also finding ways to engage the communities through Heroes events aimed to raise awareness and to get people involved in the fight to break the stigma of addiction.
If you would like further information you can contact me at hillbelk@gmail.com or on Facebook under Hillary Angela. You can also go straight to www.heroesinrecovery.com
Look forward to hearing from you!
Godspeed,
Hillary