Wicked Smaht
This September I have started a new chapter of my life. I started college. For most people this seems like a pretty normal thing to be doing at the age of 21, but for me it’s pretty big. I got accepted to the University of Massachusetts Boston.
This part of my journey has been very difficult. My entire life I struggled in school. I had no confidence in myself what so ever. That is why for me, at the time, dropping out of school sounded like a good idea. Since dropping out I’ve thankfully, through my sobriety, been able to earn my G.E.D and now attend a really amazing university.
I still have lots of fear surrounded by this transition. Fear of failure, not being good enough, etc. The even more difficult part in all this is finding a healthy balance. Working three jobs, going back to school, fitting in exercise and most importantly being active in my recovery is overwhelming.
I have come to realize that all of this is a part of life. When things get hard it’s just another chance for me to prove myself wrong. That’s been one of the most beautiful things sobriety has given me, the chance to prove myself wrong. Looking back since I’ve been sober I have had many times when I thought I wasn’t good enough. When I put the footwork in, things get done.
I’m a HUGE procrastinator. All these things I need to get done are teaching me how to get past that. In life we are faced with many obstacles.
What have been obstacles you have faced?
Did you think you would not get through them?
How did you get through them?