Being able to recognize the love in your life is transforming. I journeyed through indifference as a direct result of active addiction. I did not care how my behavior affected others or me. Once I shifted into a place of love, it became easier to share with other people undergoing or seeking change.
Continue Reading By taking a step back I have allowed other people to step in and play a part. Asking those that wanted to see me better my life was a huge help and gave me guidance. These friends and relatives are the ones I ignored in active addiction.
Continue Reading Becoming A Conduit of Change; 3-Step Guide (I have decided to do something new and will release each …
Continue Reading We can’t do anything about the past, it is over. The future does not exist. All we have is right now. Through recovery, making peace with the past is one of my most favorite parts about it. I had so many reservations from my past and it weighed me down.
Continue Reading When we play a game it is to win. The object has always been to win. I changed my life so drastically it felt like losing. The disease of addiction tried to tell me this. My phone stopped ringing. I did not know what to do with my time anymore. Before, I spent my time and money on my addiction. I had no clue how to do anything else.
Continue Reading I have to dig deep to remember what it was like when I was in the early stages of my addiction. First and foremost I felt invincible. Nothing bad would ever happen to me because that happens to other people. I also believed that magically I would just end up successful. I had no cares, no responsibility and I really lived to have a good time. Having a full social calendar was my life along with some work to support my habit. I never wanted to be around my family, felt they did not understand me. I began to depend on my using friends to fill that void. My life started to revolve around these behaviors. My irrational thought process took over from this point on. I lived my life by convincing myself this was a better reality.
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